Ever since I was younger I knew something was different about me; something that made me “weird” to other kids. When I was younger I always wanted my parents to tell me that I was actually a boy, that the hospital had messed up; they never did. I would pray that God could change me over night to be who I was supposed to be; it never happened. So I grew up as a “Tomboy” who was told it was a stage that I would grow up and become a beautiful young lady, but something in my mind told me that was wrong. I went through high school with the label of “lesbian” until my junior year; I was scrolling through social media when I saw a young man who had just had top surgery. I decided to go check out his page; when I scrolled through his page i found out that he was a transman; living in Wyoming at the time I had no clue what that meant, so I looked it up. To my surprise it described me; everything about the description described the way I felt. I held it inside that year telling no one who I learned I was, living by the labels i had been given. Finally Senior year (this year) rolled around, I had recently moved to Colorado; a place I believed to be more accepting and open minded; luckily so far i have been right. I decided this was the year to be me I had nothing to lose; it was my last year, and i didn’t know anyone so I would be fine. I started to come out to people, to my surprise it felt great. It felt like a weight had been lifted off my shoulder, I had nothing to worry about. Now that I’m almost done with my senior year I have came out to my team, my parents, some family, and friends. It has been a learning experience for many people, including me. I learned to step out of my comfort zone, and not care about what people think because no matter what, I am me.
Living Pre-T waiting for the day to start my transition. I’m trapped inside a body that is not mine, but I’m not alone so it helps. When I first came out to my team I was definitely scared, but i had no reason to; they became my biggest supporters. To anyone scared to come out, don’t be; I found some of the greatest people after I became myself.